How much blood will you shed to stay alive?

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 06:25:18 GMT

I thought it might be interesting to see if my answers to this quiz have changed...

1. do you like anyone?: I like lots of people. Who I love is entirely different.
2. do they know it?: Well I hope my friends know I like them

I N - T H E - L A S T - F E W - M O N T H S - H A V E - Y O U

1. Had sex: Yes yes but not that often
2. Bought something: New shiney boots WHICH HAVENT ARRIVED YET!
3. Gotten sick?: Yes quite ill now waiting for surgery
4. Been hugged?: Every day ^_^
5. Been kissed?: When the moment has been right
7. Felt stupid: Rarely!
8. Talked to an ex: Not once
9. Missed someone: Yes but I shall see all of them soon!
10. Got drunk: I don't think so
11. Gotten high: No
12. Danced crazy: Well I suppose. Only to make Martin say I am being too intense for him to handle.
13. Cut?: No no, not for a year I dont believe!
14. Watched cartoons: Perhaps, I'm not sure
15. Lied: Quite often

U N I Q U E

1. Nervous habits?: Bouncing my leg very fast
2. Are you double jointed?: NOt that I am aware of
3. Can you roll your tongue?: Yes
4. Can you raise one eyebrow?: Yes ^_^
5. Can you cross your eyes?: Pfft yes
6. Do you make your bed daily?: 0.o Err why would I do that?
7. Do you think you are unique?: I am unique enough

H A V E - Y O U - E V E R

1. Said "I Love you" and meant it?: Err counting the amount of times I have said that now would be a full time job.
2. Given money to a homeless person: Yes yes of course who hasnt?

M A N N E R S
1. Do you swear?: Not as often as I used to, but yes
2. Do you ever spit?: Err no
3. You cook your own food?: Martin cooks for me. But for a chef he burns things a lot...
4. You do your own chores?: Err no haha
5. Did you get laid today?: No, no need, cuddles are worth their weight in gold
6. You like beef jerky: Do YOU?
7. You like pepsi or coke?: Either floats my boat.
9. You're happy with your hair?: Yes I suppose, it sits so nicely now, no frizz :) but the style is a little off what I would like.
11. You spend your money wisely?: Yes quite often
13. You like to swim?: Despise it
14. When you get bored do you call a friend?: Never
15. You're patient?: Occasionally

D O - Y O U - P R E F E R

1. flowers or angels?: THey're both brilliant
2. gray or black?: Gray
3. Color or black and white photos?: Colour
4. lust or love?: Lustful love
5. sunrise or sunset?: Sunrise
6. M&Ms or Skittles?: M&Ms
7. rap or rock?: Both combined can be interesting
8. staying up late or waking up early?: NOt sure

D O - Y O U - P R E F E R

1. being hot or cold?: Cold
3.Winter or fall?: Autumn
4. left or right: Left
5. 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend: Both
6. sunshine or rain?: Cold sunshine
7. vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: Vanilla bean
8. boys or girls?: Oh girls are pretty damn good...
9. vodka or jack?: Port

Gerberas and Orchids

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 06:12:28 GMT

WELL

WELL WELL WELL

When I got a new boyfriend I think everyone went "Oh yeah here she goes again..." and expected to see a new one in a few weeks. Well, aren't I glad to say, Martin and I have been together for almost six months, after getting together on Mardi Gras night. He's moved in with me (from Melbourne :O) and got a job here and everything is quite wonderful between both of us. The only problem is we have a clash in flower interests...

But other than that, life is sufficiently full of... tests.

Yes hmm

I've been in and out of hospital for a good while. I have a lump growing in my lower back which stops me from walking so for now I am off work pending diagnosis. The blood test showed nothing, I had a pregnancy test FOUR times, all negative, I had to have an internal *shudder* negative... Ultrasound showed a Lipoma in my back. Took it to the surgeon, he said it WASNT a lipoma. So I had an MRI that night (frightful for anyone who is claustrophobic and afraid of loud sudden noises). Waiting for the results so I can get the surgery over and done with and get back to work.

Finished my training, HUZZAH!

Quizzimy

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 13:20:47 GMT

1. do you like anyone?: I guess so
2. do they know it?: Err which one?

I N - T H E - L A S T - F E W - M O N T H S - H A V E - Y O U

1. Had sex: Indeed
2. Bought something: Aside from everything, nothing
3. Gotten sick?: Don't think so
4. Been hugged?: Constantly
5. Been kissed?: 24/7
7. Felt stupid: Most of the time
8. Talked to an ex: A little too much
9. Missed someone: Yes on occasion
10. Got drunk: Indeed
11. Gotten high: Depends on what. Not on weed or any other crazy shit drug, no.
12. Danced crazy: Only every day of my life
13. Cut?: Nah
14. Watched cartoons: Does the Simpsons count?
15. Lied: I lie every day

U N I Q U E

1. Nervous habits?: Spinning my tongue ring
2. Are you double jointed?: Not reaaaaally
3. Can you roll your tongue?: Indeed
4. Can you raise one eyebrow?: NO *cries*
5. Can you cross your eyes?: Best past time ever
6. Do you make your bed daily?: I NEVER make my bed
7. Do you think you are unique?: Not really

H A V E - Y O U - E V E R

1. Said "I Love you" and meant it?: Yes err once or twice
2. Given money to a homeless person: Indeed I have. I used to go to school at central!

M A N N E R S
1. Do you swear?: Fuck yeah
2. Do you ever spit?: Rarely
3. You cook your own food?: Quite often
4. You do your own chores?: Yeah some of the time
5. Did you get laid today?: Does like 1am count as today? Yes
6. You like beef jerky: I'm a vegetarian so therefore I am above beef jerky
7. You like pepsi or coke?: Diet Coke
9. You're happy with your hair?: Not yet. Needs another bleaching
11. You spend your money wisely?: Doubtful. I barely ever buy anything, but when I do you can be assured that I don't need it.
13. You like to swim?: Nevvoooor. I haven't been swimming in over a year.
14. When you get bored do you call a friend?: Rarely.
15. You're patient?: With some things, very. I'm a programmer after all.

D O - Y O U - P R E F E R

1. flowers or angels?: Angels
2. gray or black?: Gray
3. Color or black and white photos?: Black and White
4. lust or love?: Unsure. Lust probably.
5. sunrise or sunset?: Sunrise
6. M&Ms or Skittles?: M&Ms RULE FUCK YEAH!
7. rap or rock?: Neither? PROG ROCK!
8. staying up late or waking up early?: Both are good on occasion

D O - Y O U - P R E F E R

1. being hot or cold?: Freezing ^_^
3.Winter or fall?: Don't know. Fall.
4. left or right: Left
5. 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend: Seven cats
6. sunshine or rain?: Depends. Neither.
7. vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: Chocolate
8. boys or girls?: Girls ^_^;;;;;!!!
9. vodka or jack?: Vodka

Hanne and Elliot have been over for a few nights ^_^ Tonight we made dessert... Coffee icecream with mango and blueberries in honey and rosewater with curls of dark chocolate. We work well in the kitchen together muahahahah. Even if Elliot can't slice mango and I can't curl chocolate and Hanne... can't cook. HAHA. She is good at attacking chocolate with a carrot peeler. We've been watching Monty Python and StarTrek (I beat the shit out of Hanne at StarTrek Trivia) and we've been drinking Absinthe and wormwood cordial stuff and heaps of Damiana... Then playing the Sims and creating a whole bunch of people to kill...

Of course Jessi is loving the attention.

YAHARGH MOTHERFUCKERS! (Shut up Hanne, typos are a natural part of the computing world!!!)

She made me kill myself... COME ON!

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 00:30:10 GMT

^_^!!!

I have a neeeewwww PC!!! In my room! With two hard drives and its damn speedy. And it's got a DVD burner which is like 0.0 for me because no one else in the house has one hehe. Installing the webcam froze my computer though and fucked up a few of the drivers for other devices... Had to reinstall the soundcard drivers. Thank god for PCs that restart in under a minute ^_^

Still no mobile phone... I cleaned my entire room out yesterday (Yeah took a few hours hehe) and I didn't find the charger so I must have left it at Jen's place. It's probably been a good lesson for me to live without my mobile hehe. I don't even miss it. I'm just curious about the billions of messages that are probably piling up in it hehe.

I'm importing cds at the moment into iTunes. Speedy. ^_^ Working on Tool at the moment, just finished At The Drive-In and Radiohead (OK Computer). Talking to Elliot ^_^

Can't hear you, just static

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 10:27:37 GMT

You can look but you can't touch
And I don't think I like you much
Heaven knows what a girl can do
Heaven knows what you've got to prove.

I've spent the last few days since I got back from Melbourne being spoilt rotten by my gorgeous boy Elly... Hehe. He turns up with a cd for me (The Gathering) and a new live DVD (Radiohead in Astoria) and he buys me pizza and gives me foot massages and makes me feel like a fucking goddess 24/7 hehe... (Not to mention, I didn't know it was possible for sex to be that good! Or long... Hahaha!) Haha... and I thought the best I could hope for was a guy turning up with a rose and giving me occasional sex for five minutes... CH-A! Tomorrow we are going shopping. He wants to buy me even more stuff but I'm not going to let him haha. Curling up and listening to Garbage, Radiohead and Porcupine Tree is such a brilliant way to spend the day. Today we watched Voyager and played StarTrek Trivia. On NewYears we got so amazingly smashed and had a really long talk. He never makes me feel boring, he listens to all the scientific and philosophical bullshit in my head and actually makes an effort to understand what I'm on about. Squee for Elliot! No one else has ever actually listened to me like he does haha.

We're watching The Party at the moment and it is fucking hilarious.
Novel has been started ^_^ Rarrrrgh! Finally! It's going really well.

HIPPY HOO HAA (Happy New Year) GORGEOUS PEOPLE!!!

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 04:56:37 GMT

Christmas 2005
Currently reading: A Brief History of Time - Stephen Hawking
Currently obsessed with listening to: Radiohead
Currently watching: Who Framed Roger Rabbit?
Current obsession: Einstein's theory of relativity
Current love: Elliot
Favourite Food: Burritos
Song: Third Eye - Tool
Colour: White
Sight: Anything at all
Smell: Truffles. Aren't I an expensive gourmet bitch?
Feeling: Imagining being curled up with Elliot.

"Why is it in our best interest to find kittens cute?"
"So they can grow up and we can eat them!"
...My vegetarian sisters have great reasoning skills heheh...

So far this has been the best christmas ever. HUUAAAH. Elliot rocks my socks yall!

I recieved:

A white gothic lace shirt
A red raver miniskirt with black legwarmers
A black and orange tribal rave shirt
A beautiful book on my favourite artist, John William Waterhouse
A fluffy pink and orange bag
A phone call from Tobi
A kiss from Elliot
And he's also getting me a The Gathering album ^_^

Squee! Good christmas!

Marley is trying to chew on the christmas tree. I love my neice! *Cuddles*

Elliot I CAN'T WAIT for us to go get Seven of Nine! She's going to be so beautiful!

Ten years ago I played the princess of spain in a school play

Five years ago I was completely despised by everyone in my wonderful christian girls school. And I was probaby in chapel.

Yesterday I lazed rather efficiantly, eating a large sum of pizza and watching videos.

Today I told a certain someone that I love them. I went to lunch with my family.

5 Songs I Know All The Words Too
* Radiohead - Paranoid Android
* Carl Orff - Carmina Burana movement one, O Fortuna
* The Mars Volta - Cassandra Gemini
* Tool - Reflection
* Gorillaz - Rock the House

5 Songs I Know The Guitar Parts too
* Dream City Film Club - If I Die, I Die
* Tool - Lateralus
* Marylin Manson - Dissasociative
* Placebo - Burger Queen
* Nirvana - Come As You Are

5 Things I Would Never Wear
* Crotchless panties
* A baseball cap
* A Slipknot hoodie
* I agree with Tobi... Fur...
* Paper Mache

5 Fave TV Shows
* StarTrek
* The Simpsons
* House
* Law and Order
* No more I don't think haha

5 Biggest Joys
* Study
* Writing
* Drawing
* Composing
* Elliot

5 Fictional Characters I Would Date
* Mei
* 2-D!!!
* ...2-D...
* Oh I didn't mention 2-D
* Maybe 2-D.

It just doesn't make any sense?

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 07:49:22 GMT

Okay so I'm in Melbourne... CH-A... And Tobi is pushing me for a journal update so I'm going to supply her with one MUAHAHAH.
Vincentia was... Nice I suppose. Got to spend the day with Tobi in Nowra ^_^ We had lunch and watched Saw II and we spoke about soy saddles on soy horses and how I could not resist eating them as I rode off into a soy sunset. Yehah. Got some reading done, read A Cage Of Butterflies again for the first time in about 3 years. I understand so much more of it now and it's such a beautiful story hehe. Spent some time with nature... Got used to my sleeping pills... Spent a night in Eden... Spent a LOT of money on text message conversations with Elly... All good ^_^

Got to Melbourne yesterday. Today I went christmas shopping with my sisters. Now I'm in Jen's apartment talking to Elly over MSN and having a gay ol' time ^_^.

Decided I'm sick of pretending to be something I'm not. I only have like three friends at the moment, one I have already started being myself around. I don't really care if being myself means that I have no more friends. It's a hell of a lot better than lying to everyone constantly. Then trying to remember what lie you made up just incase someone goes and checks it with someone else that you told a different lie to... That's getting into too much detail though. Whats important (or completely unimportant) is that I cant be fucked lying to people anymore about who I am, what I am, where I sit in life, etc.

When I say I'm watching movies, I'm actually studying. I know more than you. Get over it.

So yeah... I actually spent this afternoon trying to wrap my mind around the Heisenberg uncertainty principle in quantum physics... Because it makes little to no sense to me why the knowledge of a particle's velocity should affect the probability of the location of that particle being accurate...

Hyah

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 02:16:07 GMT

Well kiddie winks I'm going to Melbourne today! Eh for the next three nights I'll be in Vincentia. But anyway, if anyone wants to contact me I'm available on the mobile and I will be online every now and then at my sister's place. Ciao!

Sacral Nirvana

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 10:16:24 GMT

Eheheh Elly and I cleared things up really quickly. It's amazing what honesty does to people. We both just go "Hey mate this is the way it is, no joke" and then its like "Oh okay cool I'll deal then yo" and then I throw pasta all over the bench and shit...
We just had a crazy music swap. He got me into The Gathering ^_^ Ahhh they're good! I got him into George and he loves Radiohead now (as everyone should ^_^)

Can't wait to see Tobi this weekend!? Ahahahaha!

Music of the future will not entertain, it's only meant to repress and neutralize your brain...
One of the wonders of the world is going down I know
It's one of the blunders of the world that no one cares enough.

Happened on the respirator

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 05:38:21 GMT

Fuck haha. Fuck. Things are so warped.

I'm going to Melbourne tomorrow. Actually I'm going to Vincentia first (Tobi and I are spending Sunday together which will be brilliant) then I'm going to Eden for a night and then we're in Melbourne until newyears.
Today for my last day in Sydney I had Elliot over again... We watched Aliens and listened to Radiohead and the Pizza guy brought us free icecreams because he forgot our pepsi last time...

I have to get this off my chest.
I NEVER thought I would break someone's heart. I'm looking back on all the times where I've felt as awful as he must and I think to myself "What can I do to make it better? What can I do to help him through it?". All I know is that when I was in those situations, I needed that other person to just be there unconditionally to help me through... And I know how much it hurts to be around them. So I told him I was always there for him. So he left. I've done so much more damage than I ever thought I would. I'm trying to be a friend, I'm trying to help him through, I'm trying to NOT be the same as my exs have been to me... Because I know it feels like hell to be treated like shit and ignored by someone you care about so deeply... I'm really trying. But I can't lie to myself. I feel more for him than I do for any of my other friends, I'm connected with him in so many ways, and yet just not in that way, not in the way he needs me to be. Maybe I should lie to myself? Who am I, of all people, to break someone's heart like this? What right do I have to deny someone so wonderful what he wants most?

On the completely conflicting note... I sent Ben's birthday present to him today since I'm not going to actually be around for his birthday. I'm not sure it will be appreciated... I'm not even sure if it will be VIEWED... It probably wont... But I had to do something anyway. It felt right.
My hand is aching just a little from drawing too much heh. I'm really worried about Elly...

Otherwise everything is good. It's a damn hot day today.

Where did your wings go? Same place as mine.

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 04:44:51 GMT

I've started on some new sleeping medication. Haha I was SO DEAD this morning.

Yesterday I had Elly over again and it was a VERY eventful day... We're getting quite friendly with the pizza guy, eh Elly? Haha. I've got him hooked on Alien too haha. Not fair, he's getting the Alien Quadrilogy box set and all I have is the limited edition set... *Pout* I am soooo stealing your copy of Alien III re-worked!!!

Today I've been drawing again. Squee! And I'm talking to Tobikins who is THE GREATEST GIRL IN THE ENTIRE FUCKING WORLD NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE ELSE SAYS!!! Sending JJ an Email because I haven't in ages. People are coming over tonight.

Right now, I feel brilliant.

Karma

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 08:12:25 GMT

Surreal is a massive understatement.

I should be a Dali painting.

My mind is working way too fast for me to keep up with.

I'm sorry.

Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 08:27:06 GMT

I have a new EMail! ^_^ Noodle_B0wl@hotmail.com
Add me if you want some company at any point, chickens!

Noodle: I could have sworn I just got a bowl out of the bowl draw but when I looked back at the bench I couldn't see any bowl... I'm so freaked out that I refuse to get a new bowl out incase the old one shows up somewhere...

Elliot: It's okay, dear. I'm sure it wont :P. It will probably still be in the draw. Just go and put your noodles into the boiling pot and get the bowl out when they're ready.

Noodle: Yeah but I remember getting that bowl out haha. Ah well. More nooooooodles!

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 10:55:47 GMT

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Hmm. Fell in love. Left school. Left home.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Yeah actually, I did ^_^ And I most certainly will.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not that I'm aware of

4. Did anyone close to you die?
...

5. What countries did you visit?
Actually I don't think I went to any other countries this year.

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
Stability

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Easter. Fuck oath man. Haha.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Hmm I've been treated like shit by TWO guys this year and I got over both of them eventually, I think thats a pretty good achievement ^_^

9. What was your biggest failure?
Being too selfish to be there for my friends like I should have been.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I was in hospital for a few weeks from mental illness...

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Humm humm Mars Volta Tickets, red nurse uniform, my new bed.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Oh God thank you so much Tobi *CUDDLES*
I would have to say Elliot's. He put up with me a lot.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Hmm... I'm not sure about depressed but I was especially appalled with James and Ben this year.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Buying things for others hahaha

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Metalstock ^_^ Meeting Davey, going to my new school, LEAVING that school, most Transfix concerts.

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
Miranda That Ghost Just Isn't Holy Anymore by The Mars Volta

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier/sadder? Happier. MUCH.
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner.
iii. richer or poorer? Much poorer hahaha.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Enjoyed what I had while I had it.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Grieving over selfish assholes.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Going to Melbourne to stay with my sisters. Text messaging my beautiful Elliot.

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
Yes I did.

23. How many one-night stands?
Oh damnit haha I don't know... More than three.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
StarTrek, as always.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Not really. I hate people that I didn't know last year, and I dislike people that I was almost in love with last year haha.

26. What was the best book you read?
1984

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
The Mars Volta!!! Radiohead!!!

28. What did you want and get?
Boyfriends... HAH...

29. What did you want and not get?
Stability. Returned feelings.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Eheheh I don't know. Saw II. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 17 and I had a party and made out with pathetic boys with eating disorders while eating chocolate and watching a girl dance in strobelights.

32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Not having all the relationship fuckups.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
Much more casual than usual... Jeans, rainbows, dreads, what the fuck ever.

34. What kept you sane?
Music

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Zhang ZiYi hehehehe

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Don't want to talk about it, it would make me depressed. Haha I got VERY upset about it.

37. Who did you miss?
...That's obvious, isn't it?

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Errrrr I don't know haha.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.
Gorgeous boys have no brain. Gorgeous boys have no heart. Great things are hidden where you least expect them to be.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
I'll never let them hurt you and I'll never let them in. What you took from me is mine and what is mine I'll never give.

4 People You're Glad You Met This Year
Mei, Annelise, Davey, Jimmi

4 Bands You Couldn't Have Lived Without This Year
The Mars Volta, Radiohead, Tool, Porcupine Tree

3 People You Would Have Died Without This Year
Davey, Tobi, Elliot

2 Things You Would Have Done Differently This Year
Not fucked up the relationship with Davey. There's one that I don't want to say here haha... So err... Not gotten with that guy I got with once that had a REALLY small... Never mind ^_^ Elly knows what I'm talking about.

1 Thing You're Going to Change About Yourself Next Year
Stop being obsessive.

Hey yall

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 04:06:42 GMT

I'll fill you in on last night later... Lots to fill in haha... But for now chickens I'm changing my name! I've done it before haha it takes ages for people to catch on to but ah well you'll all get it eventually. My new name is Noodle. I'm not a 10 year old guitarist but she rules so I'm taking her name hehe.

Lots of ♥, Noodle

Shortly after...
Haha Rachel fell asleep. I'm burning her a bunch of cds at the moment. Last night we got a little drunk? Then drank some Damiana and then I took my Stilnox... I had never been more out of it in my life haha. I didn't purge or anything and I feel fine today aside from feeling a bit spacey from oversleeping and possibly from staying up too long with my Stilnox. I don't think I'm going to mix things like that again haha I mean I felt brilliant at the time but I just had no idea what I was doing and were I was going. I ended up wearing a white bridal dress and Rachel was running around saying I was cursed and I was freaking a bit. I didn't have a single hallucination but I was seeing double and my coordination was way off. Didn't pass out once either. All in all it wasn't too bad but the lack of control I had over my surroundings was not fun and I don't remember much of it now anyway so what's the point?

HI MUM AND DAD I know you will probably read this out of worry for me and I just want to say once again I'm really sorry for keeping you up so late! And I'm sorry I worried you, I had no idea I would end up that... Effected... And thank you mum for looking after me and sending me to bed (over and over again) because I really didn't know what was going on and I needed to sleep.

So strange that I have no hangover effects at all. I was expecting to feel slaughtered today... But aside from feeling really guilty about being such a pain in the ass to my parents, I feel great. I'm in a good mood. Rachel and I gave the cat a huge cuddle and listened to Lisa Loeb today, it was pretty peaceful. I've been listening to the B52's and such and changing my name on everything to Noodle. (If you're asking me why I'm doing this, its because I have a thing about changing my name to people I admire. A few of you will remember when I changed my name to Adrian? Especially Nikki and Samantha, they actually KNEW me as Adrian haha) It's also just a name that I think suits my personality at the moment. Eh its just a nickname.

Life is good. I don't seem to be sad about anything right now. Just contemplative.

I should eat more? Apparently I've lost weight and it suits me but ah well. I haven't eaten yet today and its almost 5. I'm not really hungry but I should eat something. If I wasn't scared of my parents right now I probably would haha. -_-;

Eh another of life's lessons learned.

Sh-shake it, shake it...

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 05:00:25 GMT

Ah fuck problems. The world is fucking beautiful.

I don't exactly have reasons to be 100% happy at the moment. But I am. Because things are just so beautiful. Before this turns into a really awfully corny rant I'm going to shut up.

Elliot stayed over last night. Twas good. Rachey baby is coming over tonight and we're going to paint a chair ^_^

Listen to Radiohead if you're upset and look at something pretty. Then stop whining. Heeyaw!

SNEEZE

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 12:43:02 GMT

I just did the most amazing sneeze. It was practically orgasmic. Yeah. I went out to dinner tonight with my family for my dad's birthday :) It was nice. Good quality food, good quality errr conversation err... My sister and I spoke about how excited we are about the Big Day Out. I'm going to see Sigur Ros with my family in April ^_^ Ehehe I have SO MANY concerts to look forward to! I've been singing Feel Good Inc all night squaaaaaaark!

Elly stayed online... ^_^ Eheheh...

Umm... ^_^ *blush* ♥ Elly... It took us long enough...

OH FUCK IT WHY AM I BEING QUIET AND SHY ABOUT THIS!? ELLIOT AND I GOT TOGETHER!!! FUCK YEAH!!!

People seem to walk through you

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 01:32:24 GMT

*Dances*

Last night was magical ^_^

49 days until The Mars Volta!

I might have finally found what I need...

GOOD STUFF BABY! HEEYAW! *Tackle* Love you, you know who you are :)

4:16PM
I just remembered... While on my sleeping meds last night I must have REALLY tripped because I remember dragging Noodle out of the computer screen and leading her around the house? Thankfully my dad was ASLEEP on the couch because I was talking to her, asking if she wanted a drink, etc. Hehe it was fun! I seriously thought Noodle was in the house with me! Fucking funny. Last night was SO TRIPPY and SO GOOD! ♥

Rock lobsterrr!

6:04PM
Where's my umbrella? Spacejump! I don't know I feel like something's happening! Something good is happeeeenniiiinnngggg! Getting nothing but static, static in my attic on channel Z!

Baum ba da baum baum baum sh-shake it shake it FEEL GOOD.

Eheheh... I've been so bored today! Did another stupid makeover of my vf account... Going to dinner tonight because its my dad's birthday ^_^ Where's my umbrellaaaaa? On the edge of aquarius! Gotta get away, away from Z!

Windmill, Windmill for the land,
Turn forever hand in hand,
Take it all in on your stride,
It is ticking, falling down,
Love forever love is free,
Let's turn forever you and me,
Windmill, windmill for the land,
Is everybody in?

You take the veil...

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 02:32:34 GMT

Ehehe *Yawn* Squeeee for getting a good night's sleep! Yeah last night I was up on the phone with my Elly twin (I hope I managed to make you feel a little better hun, I know you certainly made me feel a lot better).

Yeah anyway today yet agaaaain I'm talking to my twin (I swear its like being attached at the hip... With a hip bone that stretches all the way to Wyong) and we're finding rare Gorillaz clips haha. I downloaded Clint Eastwood live... SQUEE -_-; 2-D rules. Elliot just got another live one and he's sending it to me now ^_^ I'm watching Ken Park which I apparently watched ages ago but I was on my sleeping meds... So I'm remembering a movie I don't remember watching as I watch it hahahahaha... It's fucking twisted. It's pretty real though.

11:07PM
Laaaaaa! Laaaaaaaaaaa! Laaaaaaa la la la!
*Dances to 19-2000*

Yaww hehe I went to see Harry Potter tonight and had (MOVING!?) dinner with my parents. When I got back, the live clip of Feel Good Inc had finished transferring and its SO GOOD! Eheheh they look so real! I finally made Elliot watch Rock The House because he loves Murdoc so much... He just needed to see it... Haha! We had a Gorillaz picture contest today, finding the best picture we could and putting it in our display pictures... Started off with just Murdoc and 2-D... Then Noodle with a sword and 2-D with a scythe... I eventually won with a picture of Noodle hugging 2-D which is just too cute for words ^_^ Heeeyaw!

*Hiphop dances*

I'm fucking happy thank you very much ^_^ I am so fucking happy right now. Things are just... Good. No reason for it really. Things are just good. I'm glad things are this way. Everything balances eventually, for everything bad that happens... you gain something even better.

Frances The Mute

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 07:21:21 GMT

She said, “I’ll never let them hurt you
I’ll never let them in
What you took from me is mine
What is mine I’ll never give”...

He tied a rope around her legs
And let her hang for seven days...

This never happened, but I saw you leave,
And crawl into a bed of broken windows...

Oh my God 0.0 I'm going to die of beauty poisoning haha... Wow... For those of you who love concept albums, study the album Frances The Mute in detail then listen to the decoder song (It's on the Widow single)... The story is fucking heartbreaking...

Please excuse me I'm having a spiritual moment of connection with this haha...

It's been thirteen seconds since you all last said I've become the apparition you predicted for my death... You said that flirting brings you closer to the end. You can bait into the water but you'll never get the hint... This never happened but I saw you leave and crawl into a bed of broken windows...

Is coming on is coming on is coming on...

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 20:25:17 GMT

Yeeeah... I'm dead... It's morning and I have to go to psych and I haven't slept yet... So when I get home, I will sleep, and I will continue to sleep until I can sleep no more... Haha that sounds really good...

Last night was cool. Tobi called me and told me The Mars Volta were doing a side show ^_^ So I started doing the cancan and yeah I was happy... Then Elliot accidentally got drunk haha and we were up talking until like 2 in the morning. He's cute when he's drunk. Then I went to bed and watched StarTrek until about 4am then I listened to music until 7...

So dead... Head ouch from tiredness... I hate you stupid people who don't have to know what insomnia feels like! Hahahaha... To be so tired that you just ache everywhere and you can't see straight or think straight and you know you have to move anyway...

4:01PM
I slept... Haha I just woke up! Psych this morning was... Meh! Got a new prescription for my sleeping meds, so I WILL be sleeping tonight. They're putting me on a new kind of sleeping medication soon... Fun... They say its safer than staying on Stilnox for a long time.

Really really really really looking forward to The Mars Volta... 51 days away! I get to go see them twice in a row haha I'm going to DIE... After the BDO I'm going to be destroooyed and then I have to go line up with Elly at the Enmore hehehe ^_^ Tobi and I have agreed we are going to be at the very very very front... Elliot and I have agreed we're going to go absolutely insane... I couldn't think of anyone I'd rather be at The Mars Volta with haha I get to be there with my two best friends! *Hugs them both* Fuck I love you two. My mum is coming too because she loooves The Mars Volta almost as much as I do (The only difference being that I actually KNOW the words to L'Via L'Viaquez haha). Ben said he might be going. I'm sure I'm going to see James and Davey and a million other people there that I know... Probably Stewart haha... It's going to be good. Very good. I'm psyched. Even if it is almost two months away. How can I NOT be psyched about seeing my favourite band!?

Ares is actually a REALLY good p2p... I only got it last night and its already downloaded 7 videos for me haha... Death! Thanks Tobikins! ^_^

Concieved from the stabbing was Vismund Cygnus...

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 04:06:51 GMT

Okaaay I get to relax today heh I woke up about an hour ago and I've got wonderful sleep deprivation symptoms, but luckily the person I was going to meet up with DIDN'T message me so I get to relax and talk to Elliot and listen to At The Drive-In really loud because no one is home ^_^

I'm also running around in red lace lingere. And Elliot did not live until he was informed of this. He is my mother apparently. And he recons Omar DOESN'T think about clowns when Cedric puts a microphone up his shirt (because that's normal behaviour) but I think otherwise because Omar is strange.

I find my obsessions very amusing. They give me a lot of comfort. I'm soooo sorry to the people I piss off with my constant obsessive ramblings but it really does make me feel better to talk about them hehe. Incase you didn't notice, my current obsession is The Mars Volta and At The Drive-In, so excuse me when I ramble on about them ^_^
I'm still obsessed with Saw as well hehe I can't count the amount of times I've seen that movie now...

I need foooood.

Edit: SHOULD I BE WORRIED ABOUT THIS, ELLY!?

Me (Talking about Gorillaz): Yeap. Makes me want to wear bright colours and hiphop dance.

Elliot: Hehehe. God.. So strange. Listening to Rage Against The Machines hip hop covers makes me want to be a short girl with black hair+pink streaks with a naughty nurse outfit on and hiphop dancing o.0... Now THATS strange.

ESP

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 17:24:15 GMT

Greeeeat... It's 4:19AM at the moment and I'm not tired yet... *Groan* I've been trying to get to sleep since midnight. Seems like much longer. Yeah I ran out of medication so I've been listening to TMV and Gorillaz and its sooo not working haha... Finally got up to go to the bathroom to find that my dad obviously also had trouble sleeping because he's in the loungeroom with the cricket on... But he's fallen asleep on the couch :P

Eh I'm meant to be going into the city to meet up with two people tomorrow... And I can't get any damn sleep haha! Ah well... Insomnia is a wonderful invention... *Shoots* I'm so tired my eyes hurt... -_- I'm going to try and watch StarTrek First Contact and see if that puts me to sleep... With the amount of times I've seen it before, I wouldn't be surprised if it did...

The Grudge

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 07:35:37 GMT

Heeeyaw! Haha today I tried to go to the movies with mum at Burwood -_- CROWDS MUCH!? Anyway, it was full, so we got EasyWays (Pearl Green Tea ^_^) then went and had Japanese and went food shopping a bit and listened to The Mars Volta in the car hehe! Got home and went through all my old burnt cds and now I'm putting them on the computer along with some other good stuff ^_^ I found my The Widow single! And I finally listened to the actual song Frances The Mute properly and awwwwMIGOD I LOVE IT! Also listening to Tool again since I ripped Lateralus to the computer and also listening to Killing Heidi, Yes and Dimmu Borgir! Hummmm! I'm in a good mood.

I have to type in all the song names for Puritanical Euphoric Misanthropia though... If this is actually the CD... *Hopes* haha I know that Fear and Wonder is on it and that's suuuuch a brilliant instrumental! Really beautiful hehe. iTunes is being a pig. That's what I get for supporting Apple... *Shoots self*

Muahahah I got it to work and I don't have to type in all the names!

No there's no light in the darkest of your furthest reaches

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 07:49:37 GMT

Spent most of the day alone with the cat.
My feelings are going away again. Good. They can stay like that. Stupid fuckers.
This going to sound strange but... my nails are peeling. As in they rub off. As in when I scratch my nail (as I was just doing to get the rest of my blue nailpolish off), shavings of nail come off with it. Can't keep my hands still either. Now I know I haven't been eating much but this is just stupid, my body shouldn't fall apart this easily!

I'm so tired/dead hehe... I want to curl up with a friend and watch a movie. And have a big mug of hot chocolate. And eat pasta. Hrrrm who is free tonight? Haha.

Spoke to Sarah-Jayne again last night! She hadn't been online in almost two years haha! She's very different now, but then again I guess she would be 23 or so? It was just strange to think that this was the girl that was my helping hand through the hardest part of my life. I told her everything that ever happened to me, and she told me all about herself, and we were very well connected... Now she's moved back with her family and she's a lot colder. Ah well... friends drift apart... I'm surprised with how much her hobbies haven't changed haha! She's still a Placebo fanficcer ^_^ Nice to know one of the originals is still alive and kicking.

My Elly twin is online so I'm going to go talk to him.